Light so bright

In the darkness I see a light
As I go near, they are eyes, shining bright

watching my every step.

Something about them so unique

Eyes that hold at once,
a loving smile and a deep pain

Telling me to rise
and take up my lost hope.
Shake off the dust and claim my throne.

Oblivious of this gaze for ages
I now realize, was on me always.

When darkness crept in
with its shadows I fought in vain

The glories were nothing but pain
The trophies were a shame

Vanquished, tired, when I lift up my eyes
In the darkness I see a light shining bright.

Out of Answers?: you’re not out of God

It was challenging trying to stick to a schedule of reading the Bible completely in a year. Sadly I gave up many times as it lasted not more than a few days. So many worldly questions keep popping up and the skimming through pages where related verses appear begins, to find the answer.

As if my flowchart read: read the Bible – questions come up – find related verses(using internet of course, makes it so easy) – answer(if it doesn’t fit completely keep looking till you’re lost or forget the question itself).

Mark Love in his article Out of Answers?: you're not out of God surely threw light on what was not right.

But it is when you read the Bible as a whole, which means the flowchart read: read the bible from end to end – when questions come – answers fit in exactly and you know where they are.

A ‘Sandy’ victim mom’s prayer

Sandy effects
Dear Lord,

We have seen creation(nature) rise against creation(us).

We are overwhelmed, scared, humbled by the sights we see, by the loss we bear.

Everyday is a struggle. We feel sorry for our children going through all this trying their best to steel it through.

Destruction, devastation all around. Years of normal life thrown overboard suddenly.

Each day was such a routine, we almost always knew what came next. Now its a race to survival, we dont even know if we can make it.

Our neighbors, we hardly used to notice, we are all a team now as the pain and the loss is the same. We hardly exchanged smiles then, but now share everything. We are more helpful as people now for our sake and our family’s sake.

How I wish our children were spared all of this. But that they did, I’m sure they will have Your magnificent power imprinted in their minds all the days of their life and will have a lot to share with their kids. Ever locked in gaze with one screen or the other, gifts of our technological inventions, they now know the effects of the real versus the virtual world.

Lack of food, heaters, communication, every moment a prayer goes out of our lips asking You to provide, keep us safe.

I remember making long wish lists, resolutions. Now there are only a couple I can think of, back to normal life, wish that all this was a bad dream and I wake up.

The little ones ask questions like ‘Mama, when is all this over?’. And we reply its going to be soon, very soon with that churn in the stomach.

We need your strength to come through all this. We know our eyes will never see the world like we used to before nor will our kids. Help us to place all our worries and pain in your mighty hands and know that You, our shepherd will protect, lead us and help us carry on.


In Pursuit of Happiness


When u’re happy n u know sing a song…

When I thought of writing on this topic that I feel is an elusive one, Happiness, I got lost at a point. I understand Happiness as a state of mind….courtesy an extra production of happy harmones in the body. Oxytocin? And there are triggers like when we are on a great vacation, a nice movie, partying, shopping. Well, money can’t buy happiness but doing something that I love certainly makes me happy. So I realized no matter how much of stuff I bought that made me happy, I ended up feeling miserable, not to mention my bills and husband’s complaining look. So when I decided to list all those things/activities that made me happy, I realized it had to be split into two. That’s because there were things/activities that made me happy in the sense that I felt a certain thrill but lasted for a short time. The ‘ha ha ha’ kind ‘a happy. And then there were those that not only made me happy but also brought a sense of inner peace. The feeling that reminded me of the Bible verse “Be still and know that I am God” kind. The one that involuntarily brings a smile to your face. My list turned somewhat like this: Things/activities/people that make me Happy A new dress, a speed bike ride, shopping, exercise, a tasty dish, chocolates, friends gathering, chatting, a new idea for a post :), kids’ projects. Things/activities/people that make me Happily Peaceful

  • talking with kids and hubby about their day
  • watching kids play. Any kids not only mine.
  • when I share my morning tea with the lady collecting  garbage from our flat everyday
  • when a flower blooms in my flower pot or a new leaf appears on the money plant
  • writing on subjects I love, reading, praying
  • Watching the awe on kid’s faces when they are shown the little leaves coming out from the mustard seeds they planted a couple of days before
  • When the pancakes come out fine when the same recipe failed before
  • watching our pet turtles

The list goes on. Little world. Simple activities. Great joy! And as is my custom always to keep in tandem with my blog theme, Word inspirations, here’s a link on Bible Verses About Happiness. I’d love to know one thing that makes you the most ‘Happily peaceful’  or ‘Peacefully happy’.

‘GRACE’ of God

The little adult

A teenage girl who was gang raped by six teenage boys of the same school as hers. Why? She thought she was in love with one of them. He misused her trust and blackmailed her with nude pictures and videos of them together while forcing her to ‘please’ his friends too. Having no one to turn to (she lost most of them as she was always with this boy) she attempted suicide but was saved in the nick of time when taken to the hospital. Parents asked to cover up the entire thing fearing social stigma and refused to even listen to her, branding her as spoilt, uncaring, irresponsible, raising her guilt bar further up. They even refused any counseling sessions to get her out of the trauma after her treatment.

Trust, innocence, peer pressure, media hype – teenager brain processes.

Reminds me of Proverbs 3:5 “Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.”

All of us have instances where our trust was breached in a big or a small way and this breach is because of a lie of some kind. Result – a loss of trust, in self and in others. For some the trust battery gets so low that they feel the only way to recharge or retaliate is do the same to others ending up serving sentences.

At this point the girl most needed forgiveness, guidance, assurance and protection.

Colossians 1:13-14 He has delivered us from the domain of darkness and transferred us to the kingdom of his beloved Son, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.

James 1:5-8 If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him. 6 But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind. 7 For that person must not suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; 8 he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.

King James Version (KJV)
And the work of righteousness shall be peace; and the effect of righteousness quietness and assurance for ever.

Isaiah 41:10 ESV
Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Parents don’t notice signs of mishaps like these sometimes even when they seem to be screaming at their face.
An open culture at home where a child is comfortable to be themselves and ask questions freely avoids them believing any media frenzy or fake fads of the world that creeps in.

It took the wise intervention of a lady doctor and her counselor friend of hers to bring to task all the wrong doers and fill this girl with the right thoughts such that she stood for herself and others like her and talked boldly to the media about what she went through.

A difficult story to tell I found on Freshly Pressed is truly an inspiration, a first hand view of what goes on in the mind of the person having to go through such an ordeal.